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[28 Feb 2011|02:23pm] |
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I hate this part. The confronting the body shit. I'm about to go bathe and shave. And I mean SHAVE shave.
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[29 Jan 2011|04:03pm] |
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Naughty naughty naughty. :)
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[05 Jan 2011|04:38pm] |
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Some days it's not worth showering.
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[13 Dec 2010|08:57pm] |
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blood!!:)
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[06 Dec 2010|11:49am] |
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my boobs have been hurting for a couple days now. just wanted to note it down. i just hope its cos ill bleed soon, and not the alternative.
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[05 Dec 2010|03:22am] |
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In two days, I'm a month late. Need to find a pee test. My grandmother on my father's side passed away this evening.
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[26 Nov 2010|04:51pm] |
advice to myself:
why not write some songs about my broken heart?
FEAR MAKES THE WOLF LOOK BIGGER.
I feel some change coming, a low electricity in the air... there will be pain and sorrow and it will be ok.
I'm just trying to get used to living the single life. The alone life. The individual life...
Perhaps I'll hang with H---y tonight. Could be nice.
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[25 Nov 2010|01:30am] |
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2 and half weeks late. >.< Oh, and no one's willing to punch me.
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[23 Nov 2010|01:23pm] |
I'm about two weeks late now. -.- I'm asking my friend for a punch in the lower abs. I just hope it works. I need a pee test. I need... meh. Lots of things. Most importantly, motivation to get a job. I want to sleep too much. I slept more than normal yesterday... And I still want more today... Ugh...
I want to starve myself, but I don't. Sadly I'm looking forward to pigging out on Thanksgiving. I'm gonna hang with my crush again today... Guess I need to get to burning movies for him...
Orange juice! I want lots of it. Sometimes that works.
sigh.
So tired of my wonky cycle.
I keep thinking about moving to Washington. My friend M---y said he'd come with me. I wonder if my mom would be ok with that.
But I know one thing, if I do move up there, I would so have my stepdad teach me to ride a bike and then get my own. Yepyep...
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[10 Nov 2010|01:09pm] |
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MY GOD, his kisses are fantastic. His tongue knows right where to go. Rawr.
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[28 Oct 2010|10:48pm] |
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Today my grandmother said she can't really picture me having kids. Heh.
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[28 Oct 2010|10:37pm] |
I'll scream it, I'll whisper it.
I won't say it at all.
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[21 Oct 2010|02:39am] |
blah! feeling sooo blah!! lately. constant fear of pregnancy, disappointment with lack of any success, caged in the conservative purgatory that is the grandparents house.
probably gonna go train-hopping to new orleans over halloween...
perhaps.
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[18 Oct 2010|08:48am] |
I find it sad that I'm actually considering to moving to Washington.
I don't want to want to.
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[16 Oct 2010|10:51pm] |
I want to just focus on art.
I want to tag some shit.
I want I want I want.
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[16 Oct 2010|10:39pm] |
But anyway. Didn't get to hide. Went to the flea market, trying to sell hemp jewelry. Fail. But I got to hang with my new lezzie friend, and that was pretty cool. She got me smokes for hanging with her. At least she made money.
Sooo, after not wanting to really fuck anyone besides my crush for so long, I screwed two people the past couple days. lol
The first one was like unfinished business. The second one was an ex who I knew had a big dick, and I wanted one. lol... Funny how I wanted the first one to kiss me, and go down on me, but he didn't. Then the other one wanted both those things and I didn't want it from him. Hahahaha. Oh, irony.
Buuuut yeah. I had the chance to fuck my crush again last time I saw him, but didn't want to be out later than when the grandparents would wake. That and I wanted a shower first. But I ended up seeing granny when I got home anyway. So that was awesomely annoying. Hahah. Oh yeah, and I was stoned as shit, red-eyed as shit. Good fucking stuff. -.-
Staying in on this Saturday night. Not by choice. Lame.
Whatever. At least there's the Sunday breakfast tomorrow. It will rule.
Oh, and I got some new books from the flea market friend too. So that's awesome.
I'm hungry. Hm. Maybe some ice cream. Idk.
Sleep deprived. Had like an hour or two nap when I got back today, but I'm still gonna sleep sooo good tonight.
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[16 Oct 2010|10:37pm] |
Best boyfriend = Cthulhu. Best cuddle buddy = teddy bear. Best love = Kali.
Fuck people.
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[16 Oct 2010|02:38am] |
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Enter hide mode.
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[10 Oct 2010|10:49pm] |
Oh, these bitches. I'm tired of people being shitty. I'm tired of me being shitty. I'm tired of crushing on this guy so hard that's not even technically available. I'm tired of being paranoid of pregnancy. But some asshole (non)friends of mine only fucking worsen it. What's fucked is that right now it could be possible... >.< I did have a period recently but it was short and I've gained some weight the past couple months and this last period was the shortest cycle I've had in a while, unless it wasn't actually a period and it's... yeah. Ugh. This one fuckface who had a party a while ago, I came to his party and he looked at me and asked me, "ARE you preggers?" Well if he would have kept his fucking promise and taken me to the clinic he was talking about, maybe I could know by now. But I don't have the money to get an ultrasound. Not even some pee tests from the store.
I have a job interview tomorrow. For a convenience store. Near the ghetto. Yay.
Sadly I hope I get it, just so I can be making money. But I think I'll hit up some restaurants afterwards too.
I've totally just ignored looking into school more. Blah.
Kinda hate life today. And people.
Like gossiping bitches telling people that I've slept with someone I haven't. Or sneaky bitches that steal shit. Because I know they do.
-.-
But anyway, I've been thinking about going out for a walk later. With some spray paint. Heheh. But I might end up just turning in relatively early since I do have that interview. Whateva.
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[07 Oct 2010|07:03pm] |
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Sometimes I wonder if I have PTSD. But I don't really wanna know. Cos if I do know and I do end up having it, then that just makes it more real. And more real means more annoying. Yeah. I'm so going to bed early tonight.
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